Challenge #1

I've been thinking about this first challenge and it dawned on me that as long as I write this blog privately, I remain safe. Safe from notice, safe from judgment and safe from accountability. I've mentally battled with myself about the whole purpose of this blog. I ask myself, "Is this another one of my things? One of those many silly ideas I get and jump into head first, but then immediately swim back to the shore of reality?" I can hear voices from the past saying, "What's Julie into now?" A question usually accompanied with a head-shake or eye roll.

Okay, I'm a chronic non-finisher. If that's even a word.  Yep, I admit it. There should be groups for people like us to meet and find support. Problem is, we would all be at the first meeting, full of energy and excitement - but by the third or fourth, we would all have lost interest and moved on to other things.  My sister once told me I can't make decisions. I responded that my problem is actually the opposite of that: I make too many decisions! In college, I majored (a term or two at a time) in almost every major offered. Chemistry (yeah, my brain doesn't work that way), Criminal Justice (I was ready to lay down the law!), Journalism (I was too introverted to ask anyone questions), English (got bored), Education (the students of the world need better than what I could offer), and even Flight Technology (except I couldn't come close to affording the tuition, so that one got dropped before it was even added).

So here's my challenge this week: Let people know about this project and invite them to read along.

It scares me first of all because of what I've already mentioned (my fear of not finishing something yet again) but also because my private thoughts - my process - will be public. I'm going to say stupid stuff. I'm even going to be wrong at times (gasp!). But regardless, I'm putting it all out there to be noticed, read and even judged. Seriously, my hands are sweating right now...Fear of failure; fear of the opinions of others...it's time for you two to go.

Okay. Let's do this.